Everything is Going To Be Fine

This morning my husband and I woke up to find out that we don't have enough money to pay our rent next week. As I am sure a lot of people are realizing that too - unfortunately. But I have felt such a peace that God will provide, somehow some way we will get the money.

My blessed ever so wonderful husband - who is a worrier - is not feeling the same. So we've just been praying. I have been racking my brain trying to figure out how to earn extra money - to do something. I have been online all day trying to sign up for stuff to try and earn money. I signed up for Twitter Moms and its great! I am not a mom yet, but I signed up for it anyway.

This wonderful woman by the name of Bonnie Mechelle, Christian WeiGht LOss COaCh left me this beautiful poem. It truly blessed me because everything will be just fine!

You can listen to the poem here.

God will provide that money! I have faith and believe! We commit our money to you Lord! Thanks be to my heavenly Father!

JEHOVAH JIREH, MY PROVIDER
HIS GRACE IS SUFFICIENT FOR ME
FOR ME, FOR ME!
JEHOVAH JIREH, MY PROVIDER
HIS GRACE IS SUFFICIENT FOR ME

MY GOD SHALL SUPPLY ALL MY NEEDS
ACCORDING TO HIS RICHES IN GLORY
HE SHALL GIVE HIS ANGELS
CHARGE OVER ME

JEHOVAH JIREH CARES FOR ME
FOR ME, FOR ME!J
JEHOVAH JIREH CARES FOR ME

Question of the Day

So, when I was younger fmy parents started showing us "scary" movies on Halloween. I put the scary in quotes because they were usually old black and white movies - they weren't all that scary to us most of the time. Don't get me wrong there were times when a B&W movie scared the snot out of me (Alfred Hitchcock's "The Birds" for instance). But they were usually cheesy. We always watched "Arsenic and Old Lace" on Halloween. I no longer live at home, and I miss that.

My question is: Does anyone else have a tradition they follow on halloween?

Dunkin’ Duels Starbucks

Which is your favorite? I am personally a Starbucks junkie - so much so that, I refuse to taste Dunkin’ Donuts Coffee just on principle. Seriously though, which do you prefer? Which tastes better?

Dunkin’ Donuts is so sure its coffee is superior, that they are unleashing a blind taste test against Starbucks. In their first commercial they will feature a woman in a lab coat toting a clipboard asking average joes (an auto mechanic, power line repairman, TV reporter and Taxi driver) which coffee they prefer – obviously they choose Starbu…um, I mean Dunkin’ Donuts. Then you will hear the narrator state that in a national taste test more hardworking Americans preferred the taste of Dunkin Donuts over Starbucks. The end of the commercial states: “Try the coffee that won and find out why America really does drive on Dunkin.”

They also have a website: DunkinBeatStarbucks.com; this takes even more shots at Starbucks with such lines as: “It’s just more proof that it’s all about the coffee (not the couches or music).” The online campaign also includes YouTube.com and Facebook.com

Apparently their information is true too! The chain hired a research company to survey about 500 people in different cities (including the hometown Starbucks: Seattle). According to Dunkin’ Donuts, 54% of the people preferred Dunkin’ coffee compared to the 39% who preferred Starbucks.

Hmmm, maybe I should try Dunkin’ Donuts coffee…it’s definitely cheaper.

Happy Friday!!

Well, today Dave and I started talking about having kids again. I'm so unsure about whether we should start trying again! I really dont know. Dave neither actually. He made a good point - we just need to pray about it.

I'm kinda scared actually. I don't want to go through that all over again - getting pregnant to lose my baby. That was the worst thing I ever had to go through. I know we can't let this get to us...to me really. I know it's all about trusting God....but I just don't want to deal with this again. My friend has six kids and is expecting her seventh (God bless her)....but she has had 2 miscarriages. I don't know it was her first and sixth pregnancies.

I know that they say it's highly unlikely if you have a miscarriage once, you will have another (or something like that)...but what if I'm like Michelle? What if I'm the type that can't have kids?

God help me if I can't have kids!

Funny Thursdays...

SO I think I have bronchitis....therefore this will be short today. Like everyone at that time, I fell in love with Tom Cruise in “Risky Business”. He was great singing Bob Seger’s “Old Time Rock and Roll”. It’s a priceless moment that has been replayed, re-enacted, mimicked hundreds of times.

Now, in my opinion Tom Cruise was the best at it. That is until I saw this latest creation from advertising agency DDB . It features Kobe Bryant rocking the mic, Alex Rodriguez and Michael Phelps busting a move while ripping it up on the exhilarating new guitars, and Tony Hawk sliding in on a skateboard to play the drums.

I have only one word to say: HYSTERICAL!

Been so sick...

I've been so sick the past couple of days. I hate being sick. What I hate the most about it is: you have to work while being sick.

So, here is something funny/cute I found online:

Oh yea...

So, now that I got my period...my husband wants to start trying to have kids again. I don't know if thats a good idea. I have such doubts!

I mean, what about this economy? Dave and I have some debt over our head...shouldnt we wait to get rid of it until we start? Also, I am overweight, what if I had the miscarriage because of my weight issues? I mean, I am losing weight right now, but what if that's not enough?

Oh here's the best part! My dad told David that we should not have kids yet - because we don't have enough money or something like that. My dad has said some stupid things but that just takes the cake. I know that he means well, but dang! God bless him, that's all I can say.

I just don't know. What am I supposed to do? Dave is supportive, but he wants to talk about it. I don't think I am emotionally ready for that just yet too.

Actually I think that's the biggest thing. I don't think I could handle being pregnant again. I know that I shouldnt freak out about it. I know that lots of women have had miscarriages and have kids after. Its just...I don't know.

Bad Day...

Today was not a good day. First, I did not get to bed until 2:30 this morning because of work. Then, I woke up later - not a problem for normal people. I'm not normal - I have a schedule that I need to keep to if not - everything feels just wrong...I seriously think I have OCD sometimes.

So then at the end of my day, I get an email from one of the sites that I had been promoting on for work, saying I violated the TOS. I looked over the TOS again, and I did not violate any of them. Then I get an email from the CEO's secretary telling me that the articles I have been posting on a site were not acceptable.

UGH!

The site they have me writing articles for, I have absolutely NO experience in - Public Relations. So DUH PEOPLE!!! I am going to write about what I know - Advertising.

People just suck today. I think that this day feels worse only because I got my period today, so everything was just amplified by like 10 million. I can't wait to go to sleep.

Check out this Awesome Art!!

Found this awesome website with gorgeous art! Here are some awesome pictures.

You can check out more at: White Walls.

McDonalds "I Won't Do That"

Remember that song “I would Do Anything For Love (But I Won’t Do That)” from Meatloaf? It was a great song, made in the 80’s. I remember when Dr. Pepper came out with an ad using this song; the boyfriend did everything for his girl, until she tried to take a sip from his can of Dr. Pepper. Well, here is McDonald’s hysterical take on the song, in an ad from Egypt.

Celebrities

Why are we so obsessed with Celebrities? Why do we need to know everything about them? They are people just like you and me....but none-the-less, we just can't get enough of news like: Madonna and Guy Ritchie are breaking up...or America Ferrera pants'd an panty-less (shocker) Lindsay Lohan. Why do we care so much?

Something Beautiful

I just recently heard this song again from Newsboys and I had to share! Enjoy the video and the words are below it:



I wanna start it over
I wanna start again
I want a new a new beginning
One without any end
I feel it inside
Calling out to me

CHORUS
It's a voice that whispers my name
It's a kiss without any shame
Something beautiful
Like a song that stirs in my head
Singing love will take us where
Something's beautiful

I've heard it in the silence
Seen it on a face
I've felt it in a long hour
Like a sweet embrace
I know this is true
It's calling out to me

CHORUS
It's a voice that whispers my name
It's a kiss without any shame
Something beautiful
Like a song that stirs in my head
Singing love will take us where
Something's beautiful
It's the child on her wedding day
It's the daddy that gives her away--Father
Something beautiful
When we laugh so hard we cry
It's the love between you and I
Something beautiful

Today

Today was the first day i went back to church since the miscarriage. Wow it was hard. Not many people came up to me, which was perfect...but there was this one family who came up to me and talked me up a storm!

Not that I don't appreciate that, its just weird. I mean this family (all girls), is awesome, sweet, kind, God fearing women. But, why ask all those questions? I guess its because they care, but hey at least I didn't burst out crying.

Oh yea, I saw Michelle today. She looked great, I believe she's about 7 months pregnant. She is having some difficulty with her pregnancy, but Lord willing everything will be fine. I am definitely praying for her.

Teenagers

Why do young girls where slutty outifits and get mad at guys for reacting to them? I mean HELLO!!! Girls as young as 12 are wearing outfits that I wouldn't even wear outside now.

Especially with all those perverts out there....GET A CLUE!!

Are You Ready?

I am a child of the 90's, and definitely of dc Talk. Here is an awesome video of the song: I Wish We'd All Been Ready by Larry Norman.

Last One I Swear!

I went to Word Of Life Bible Institute in Pottersville, NY. That was a very trying time to be there, but this song brought me through it. These people were so closed minded and foolish, but I have to say that I am truly greatful for my time there. If I didn't go there, I would not have learned how to stick up for myself....it has very different beliefs than I do. Anyhow, this song really ministered to me when I was there, I SANG THIS SONG DAILY!

Praise the Lord!

God's Mercies - part two

Here is another powerful song. But I want to explain this one, because not everyone knows who Horatio Spafford is or what he went through. This hymn was written after several traumatic events in Spafford’s life. The first was the death of his only son in 1871, shortly followed by the great Chicago Fire which ruined him financially (he had been a successful lawyer). Then in 1873, he had planned to travel to Europe with his family on the S.S. Ville du Havre, but sent the family ahead while he was delayed on business. While crossing the Atlantic, the ship sank rapidly after a collision with another ship, and all four of Spafford's daughters died. His wife Anna survived and sent him the now famous telegram, "Saved alone." Shortly afterwards, as Spafford traveled to meet his grieving wife, he was inspired to write these words as his ship passed near where his daughters had died.

When peace like a river, attendeth my way,
When sorrows like sea billows roll;
Whatever my lot,
Thou hast taught me to say,
It is well, it is well, with my soul.

Refrain:
It is well, with my soul,
It is well, with my soul,
It is well, it is well, with my soul.

Though Satan should buffet,
though trials should come,
Let this blest assurance control,
That Christ has regarded my helpless estate,
And hath shed His own blood for my soul.

My sin, oh, the bliss of this glorious thought!
My sin, not in part but the whole,
Is nailed to the cross, and I bear it no more,
Praise the Lord, praise the Lord, O my soul!

And Lord, haste the day when my faith shall be sight,
The clouds be rolled back as a scroll;
The trumpet shall resound, and the Lord shall descend,
Even so, it is well with my soul.

Horatio Spafford

God's Mercies

Nowadays, there are quite few Christian singing groups that I can really appreciate. Most of them sing these empty songs. They have no feeling behind them. You know what I mean? They try to sound sincere, but they just end up sounding like Britney Spears or Maroon 5....nothing spiritual about them and they end up sounding more like love songs.

In fact, have you noticed how most "Christian" songs end up on secular radio stations? Those aren't real songs to me. There are though, some few groups that you can tell they have a true relationship with the Lord. Like: Casting Crowns, Steven Curtis Chapman (God be with him and his family), Newsboys, even Audio Adrenaline (well the old AudioA).

With the recent events that I have gone through, there have been several songs that have truly touched me. For example: East to West by Casting Crowns....


EAST TO WEST
Here I am Lord and I'm drowning
In your sea of forgetfulness
The chains of yesterday surround me
I yearn for peace and rest
I don't want to end up where you found me
And it echoes in my mind
Keeps me awake tonight

I know you've cast my sins as far
As the East is from the West
And I stand before you now
As though I've never sinned but today
I feel like I'm just one mistake away
From you leaving me this way

[CHORUS]
Jesus can you show me
Just how far the East is from the West
Cause I can't bear to see the man I've been
Come rising up in me again
In the arms of your mercy I find rest
Cause you know just how far the East is from the West
From one scarred hand to the other

I start the day the war begins
Endless reminding of my sin
Time and time again
Your Truth is drowned out by the storm I'm in
Today I feel like I'm just one mistake away
From you leaving me this way

[CHORUS]
Jesus can you show me
Just how far the East is from the West
Cause I can't bear to see the man I've been
Come rising up in me again
In the arms of your mercy I find rest
Cause you know just how far the East is from the West
From one scarred hand to the other

[BRIDGE]
I know you've washed me white
Turned my darkness into light
I need your peace to get me through
To get me through this night
I can't live by what I feel
But by the truth your word reveals
I'm not holding on to you
But your holding on to me
Your holding on to me

[CHORUS]
Jesus, you know just how far
The East is from the West
I don't have to see the man I've been
Come rising up in me again
In the arms of your mercy I find rest
(The arms of your mercy I find rest)
Cause you know just how far the East is from the West
From one scarred hand to the other(x2)

(Just how far, the East is from the West) (x3)

From one scarred hand to the other

Life Now...

So now life is going on as normal as possible; but not really. I took a recent picture of my husband, and it seems as if he aged 20 years within the past month. Things are so different. I still blame the miscarriage on myself. Dave doesn't, but I can't help feel like its my fault.

I still am a little chunky from the pregnancy, so my self esteem is suffering. Greatly suffering. My husband has never been the romantic kind, I love him to death and I know he loves me...but he sooo sucks at that!!

So, work is going sorta well. I am a blog manager at Talent Zoo, I work on their family of blogs called OffSet Media. I am now paid per blog entry, it makes it a little more stressful...but I like writing. So far everything has been fine. The CEO and CFO told me that they are working on stuff to give me, so that I can earn more money. I am supposed to start that tomorrow.

God help us.

Dave freaks out about money so much. I keep trying to encourage him, but its like he's not listening! I keep trying to point him toward the bible, but I don't know whats happening with him. God please work in our lives! Dave told me today, that he wished he had the faith I do. I told him: "You can, you just have to believe."

I gotta keep praying for him. Then again, my father has been that same way since I was born. Then again, you never know! People can change.

Oh yea, Dave wants to go see his family for Thanksgiving. His family in Georgia. They are already having problems because we are not sleeping over. Dude, I don't mean to sound snobby - but they want us to sleep on the floor on an air mattress. Not even to mention my horrible back, but Dave has a horrible back and demands to do all the driving. So we are going to stay at a nearby Hotel.

We want to get there Wednesday morning (leaving Tuesday night) - and spend the day sight-seeing in Atlanta. Then we want to leave early Friday morning. His family hates me. That's the problem. No, hate is a strong word and its not the whole family. His mother does not like me. She is so mean to me. Her little snide comments go over Dave's head...but UGH!

She treats Dave's sister-in-law that way too. Dave's brother and her have been married for 5 years, and they have a 3 year old child together. That baby has not really spent time with Dave's mom. Its her fault!

Ok, well I have vented enough for the day. I need to go pray.

ALWAYS LET YOUR VOICE BE HEARD.

JESUS IS WATCHING YOU!

Late one night, a burglar broke into a house he thought was empty. He tiptoed through the living room but suddenly he froze in his tracks when he heard a loud voice say:

"Jesus is watching you!"

Silence returned to the house, so the burglar crept forward again.

"Jesus is watching you," the voice boomed again.

The burglar stopped dead again. He was frightened. Frantically, he looked all around. In a dark corner, he spotted a bird cage and in the cage was a parrot. He asked the parrot: "Was that you who said Jesus is watching me?"

"Yes," said the parrot.

The burglar breathed a sigh of relief, and asked the parrot: "What's your name?"

"Clarence," said the bird.

"That's a dumb name for a parrot," sneered the burglar. "What idiot named you Clarence?"

The parrot said, "The same idiot who named the Rottweiller......Jesus."

Source Inspirational Archive

Thought for the Day

A doctor, a lawyer, a little boy and a priest were out for a Sunday afternoon flight on a small private plane. Suddenly, the plane developed engine trouble. In spite of the best efforts of the pilot the plane started to go down. Finally the pilot grabbed a parachute, yelled to the passengers that they had better jump, and bailed out.

Unfortunately there were only three parachutes remaining.

The doctor grabbed one and said "I'm a doctor, I save lives, so I must live," and jumped out.

The lawyer then said, "I'm a lawyer and lawyers are the smartest people in the world, I deserve to live!" He grabbed a parachute and jumped.

The priest looked at the little boy and said, "My son, I've lived a long and full life. You are young and have your whole life ahead of you. Take the last parachute and live in peace".

The little boy handed the parachute back to the priest and said, "Not to worry, Father. The 'smartest man in the world' just took off with my back pack."

Submitted by LMMyers

MORAL OF THE STORY: DON'T BE SELFISH!

What has become of us?

Saw this from Jim Borgman who is this great, Cincinnati-based cartoonist. He took a fun look at the mainstream weigh in on the shiny new tools.

Economy Bailout Song: AIG, Freddie Mac, Lehman Bros

I don’t need to tell you this, but our economy is doing just horribly. Just like everyone else in America, when I found out the news about AIG, Freddie Mac and Lehman Brothers…I was floored, flabbergasted.

You see I worked at AIG, about 3 - 4 years ago; and during their new hire orientation - which lasted 4 hrs - about 90% of the discussion was concentrated on how big and powerful AIG was. AIG was the parent company of “hundreds” of smaller companies; had thousands of employees; and was making millions of dollars in investments. At the end you were left thinking, “Wow, I work for a great and powerful company.” But anyway, I digress.

With all that is happening, I thought that we could use a laugh or two. Here are a couple of guys who made a very funny song about the state of the economy.

The Importance of Color

Daily, I am amazed at how important color can be to some people. Where I might see that the color should be Blue, others (clients, friends, family – whoever), see Red – and then blame you for the color problem :o). Now, if this is a client then – obviously – they are right. But what if I see no color? What if all they see is color…and have a problem with that…what do you do?

During this election, I have been flabbergasted by the violent outcry of people against Obama. I cannot remain silent any longer; America is not as far evolved as we would like to think. Now, I am not trying to sound pro- anyone…I am merely making a point. I read on CNN.com, that people are actually expressing their decision to not vote for Obama merely because of his skin color. Gerry McEntee is the President of the American Federation of State, County and Municipal Employees. He is also a leader in the AFL-CIO’s 2008 election program. He spoke recently, at a labor rally in Ohio, of his frustration about the refusal, of some white union members to support Obama.

"When it gets real bad, and they never -- with this one -- look you in the eye, 'Well, I can't vote for him,' " McEntee told the diverse union audience. "This doesn't even come out in code -- it comes out like this: 'I can't vote for him because he is a black man. He's not one of us.' Well, sisters and brothers, when you hear that, you know what you ought to say? This is what I say: 'That is bull----! That is total, absolute bull----!' "

In my other blog, I stipulate that McCain has a lot to do with this foolishness. I don’t mean to imply that he is the main cause; I mean to say that he is not helping things at all. He is truly the perfect example of what America used to be. He recently said in a rally that “he indeed respected Senator Obama, and thought of him as a decent man…a family man, and that there was no need for anyone to fear him if he were to be elected president.” But I think the damage has been done.

I received a comment on that blog entry in which the person implied that if the shoe was on the other foot, the liberals would be screaming that the world would come to an end or “how gay people are going to be locked up”. You know what? I agree with her to a point. I doubt the liberals would be screaming “Cane McCain to Death!” or something else too violent to think about. Then again… :o)

Come on people. What is the deal? How can color be so important?? Here are some awesojme words from dc Talk, that I think we need to start listening to:

Pardon me, your epidermis is showing, sir
I couldn't help but note your shade of melanin
I tip my hat to the colorful arrangement
Cause I see the beauty in the tones of our skin

We've gotta come together
And thank the Maker of us all

CHORUS:
We're colored people, and we live in a tainted place
We're colored people, and they call us the human race
We've got a history so full of mistakes
And we are colored people who depend on a Holy Grace
A piece of canvas is only the beginning for
It takes on character with every loving stroke
This thing of beauty is the passion of an Artist's heart
By God's design, we are a skin kaleidoscope

We've gotta come together,
Aren't we all human after all?

Ignorance has wronged some races
And vengeance is the Lord's
If we aspire to share this space
Repentance is the cure

Well, just a day in the shoes of a color blind man
Should make it easy for you to see
That these diverse tones do more than cover our bones
As a part of our anatomy.....

Doing Better

doing better lately. I am finally able to go outside without crying. But I feel very self-conscious when I do. I feel like I am as huge as a house. Guess my depression is moved on to other things.

Well, on with life. It totally sucks though.